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Love Among the Ruins

by Electric Brain Electric Shadow

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Indoor Cat 05:08
Like a cat who's spent his life indoors finally let out to roam at night Overwhelmed in sound and energy, wide awake and thrilled and terrified Here the stars are cold and threatening, directing me to roam beneath their light And even if my back is arched in fear, my face is thrown adoring to the sky Run away from rooms where years go by in comforting and deadening routine We all sit and watch the world outside and no one has control of anything And are there monsters? Am I a monster? Do I dream of blood between my teeth? And are there wonders? And am I a wonder? And do I dream to be another's dream? And what if I can never tell how to live outside? When to walk in confidence and when to run and hide? What there is to be despised and what to be adored? What to run away from and what to run toward? At the edge of what the light can see, where the garden fades into the trees Another universe is beckoning, another world beyond reality I want to cry and I want to howl, I want to run into the woods and die I want to fly and I want to drown, I want to never want to go inside And what if I can never tell how to live outside? When to walk in confidence and when to run and hide? What there is to be despised and what to be adored? What to run away from and what to run toward?
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When the light comes It knows who we are It knows where we hide And who we're hiding from And what a short, mundane, trip it has been When it comes, I know it will find me alone Here, I know, is a weakness of mine A fear of confrontation and surprise For what I forget And what I forgive And what I put down inside The debt owed is mine alone There, below, the debris of a life A slate of satisfactions and delights For what I have known And what I will miss And what I will never find The debt owed is mine alone For years I thought I, could escape the person I always knew I'd have to be But it's far too late now, to think of changing Without becoming less of me Here in our melting world there's Great wells of pity that taste like love By day I know I'm yours and When the night falls I know I'm alone
4.
Find the way below Lie down and take shape Away from a warning that burns outside The challenge to love or be damned Against all better judgment I find I miss the way The failure of love makes time go stretching out And walking on a fall day in a shimmering cascade Of sorrow and self-pity, all lost to me now Seems a hundred years ago Seems like somewhere out of time Seems like the gardens of the moon Seems like another life But the echoes have come here to dwell To be consumed in wanting but unable to see The shape of satisfaction or what that would mean Confers on self-destruction romantic dignity And lays a veil of beauty on the suffering Seems a hundred years ago Seems like somewhere out of time Seems like gardens of the moon Seems like another life But the echoes have come here to dwell
5.
Unendurable reckoning made its way through me It left me in a grief meltdown fantasy But it swept all the dust off, burned my vision clean Sleep alone, I find, never falls untrue A vine that's cut to nothing Growing thorns and coming back anew In the eye of the tragedy I could see what had been lost The melancholy and ecstasy of solitary thought The enduring mystery of the joy of jerking off I'm no longer ashamed of the urge to run away I'm no longer afraid of the urge to dissipate Sleep alone, I find, never comes too soon Weak and falling blackly Live in hope or die inside the truth Sleep alone, I find, never falls untrue A vine that's cut to nothing Growing thorns and coming back anew I've never really been alone Never anything except alone Now I only wish that I may known The notorious freedom of the ghost What's death to one sets another one free We are what we have to be What tortures one is another's relief Once I thought I saw with clarity What seems in one light a blessed release In another the madness of grief What seems on one light like it could be peace In another is just apathy
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I hope I am not who I deserve to be And what dreams bind me Come undone in the heat I hope I am not what time has meant for me An age of cruel wonder Comes with awe and grief And as the mouth is opening I only hear a dry hollow sound Empty then of everything Except a growing feeling of despair The luminous future has faded into an unknown Like a bell dying slowly til we only imagine its tone Yields to something strange and dreadful In a time of cruel miracle If there is no air that will bear the words Then these pieces will fade into the glow
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Thwarted by the drone of my unsatisfying voice And by the fumbling of my clumsy hands My song stumbles across the air, nobody is moved, And though many things in life depend on chance Many selves in many lifetimes will experience this failure There is something in the failing that binds us to the earth A voice that tries to cut across the gaps of empty hours In the hope that something real will be heard But everyone is sending, no one is receiving All our voices drowning in a sea of empty noise Everyone is speaking, nobody is listening Our hearing overwhelmed in the illusion of choice I'm trying to say something but I don't know what it is I only know never comes out right I can't pause and take a breath and hear how someone else would say it I insist I have to be the flame that sets the world alight With the world around us trying to reveal its true nature But its radiance diminishing, and growing ever fainter And the people that surround us are no longer so appealing and our solitude is calling in its small, insistent whisper
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Hold on where the sunlight on the placid water smiles We will dive into the cities swallowed by the ancient sea -- old water Hold on where the current winds around some sunken thing A mere ripple for that monolith that rises in the ancient sea Hold on where the waves will wash the plain that was a street In the ruins she will wait for me; gather counsel with the evening sky And I know the ocean will receive us then I know the ocean will receive -- and she will dream like an animal Hold where the water laps upon the shattered eyes Of towers of wealth and luxury swallowed by the ancient sea Where the country does not even boast a tree None to mar the rippling majesty, such perfection as you've never seen And I know the ocean will receive us then I know the ocean will receive -- and she will dream like an animal Though well you might dream, how little you'd know If the dreams all made earthly now, the dreams made real Behold the light, behold the light
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When I feel like it only rains on me The god I gave my life in prayer and fealty Will tie me and flay me and lay out my hollow skin Wear me and shape me and play and dance within And when I chase the cloud to the corner of the sky Spiral in the shock of the ever-shifting light It will lift me and take me somewhere behind the sun Lift me and take me somewhere behind the sun

about

This is my most lushly produced and sonically rich work, with tons of live instruments and guest elements like strings, choral vocals and double bass. I wrote much of it on acoustic guitar this time, which means the songs are a bit more streamlined and accessible while still retaining twists, turns and surprises.

I began developing this material in mid-2020, and while none of it is explicitly about lockdown, my mind did drift toward considerations of community versus solitude, restraint and release, what it means to be connected to other people, and what we give up for the habitual seclusion of the artist's life.

My goal has always been to make music which is accessible and melodic but several steps of complexity above standard verse/chorus, music which is attentive to details of sound and arrangement, and music which captures a mood of autumnul melancholy. Right now I feel like I've done those better here than anywhere else.

credits

released March 24, 2023

All tracks except 3 mixed and mastered by John Marion at Groovy Duck Studios.
Odhran Cummings: bass on 1, 2, 6, 8, 9
www.instagram.com/leftybasso/
Carly Anne: vocals on 4
carlyanne.bandcamp.com
Danny Burke: vocals on 7
linktr.ee/dannyWithTheDaylight
Abby Fuller: vocals 5, 7
abbyfullermusic.com
Jason Mendelson: electric 12-string on 4
www.youtube.com/@JasonMendelson
Miguel Velazquez Matija: bass on 4
instagram.com/miguel_bassevic
Ethan Warden: trombone on 8
On Twitter @TheLofiBard
Sean McNalley: acoustic guitar on 2, 4
seanmcnally.co.uk
Cello on 1 and 8 by Lit_art, Ticelm and Celloart

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Electric Brain Electric Shadow Olympia, Washington

Electric Brain Electric Shadow marries the compositional sophistication of progressive rock with the textural richness of ambient music, the dynamics of post-rock, and the emotional vulnerability of alternative and post-punk. The resulting sound is complex yet accessible, attentive to details of sound and arrangement, and evocative of thoughtful melancholy. ... more

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